I have finally accepted that I must sell my house. I have tried everything I can think of to hang on to it. I really need the equity to pay off debt and more importantly I need to leave this street and the memories in this house and start a whole new life. Hopefully debt free, and emotionally free. Perhaps in time I will even be able to change jobs and close that chapter of my life as well.
My son is almost grown, I'm not getting any younger. Almost forty, divorced, and almost an empty nester. I need to start arranging my life and finances in such a way that I can be free and happy. Free to pursue hobbies and interests of my own. Take classes, be creative, travel, spend time with friends. It's time to get out of the house and be sociable, and not just the bar.
I wish I had gone to school and been able to get a job doing something I loved and made enough money to really enjoy all the things life has to offer, but I think I can carve out a quiet, humble little life for myself.
I am tired of hanging on to the past, to the memories, to all the things that remind me of my past and the false hope that I would get it all back. I wasn't happy when I was married, wasn't allowed to be myself. So what is it I'm fighting to get back or keep? I know what makes me happy, I know who I am, I just need to get off my ass and make it all happen. I've been through hell, I know I can do this. I just need a little bit of good luck in selling this place for what I need so I can get a good, clean, fair start at my new life.
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